Just a thought...

2006-06-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

well I am off to torry pines....with some fantabulous people...like my word...you should...cuz I do...hehe
I'm crazy

long time

2006-06-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

umm... it's been a long while!

I am excited because on friday I get to hang with some super cool people at the beach. I wont give away any names because then people would want them all to there selves. I relize that sounds a bit selfish...sorry...it's just how I feel...Well Friday is going to be a laid back relaxing drama free day.... :)

About Time

2006-03-07T12:02:00.000-08:00

So the last couple weeks have been amazing...The freedom in our worship...outa control...To see people step out in obedience and with the boldness of God...So cool...To think that Sunday was just a glimpse of what god is going to do through us...And how cool is it that we are doing it hand in hand with out spiritual parents...I am so excited for what's to come...

*jess...Why do it keep losing 5 bucks!!*

OMG!!!!!

2006-02-03T09:38:00.000-08:00

OMG!!!!!!!! My MoM is coming into town today.... I haven't seen my mom since I was like 8! What the heck! I am so confused and nervous right now. All I want to do is say I forgive her to her face. But that's really all. She is a complete stranger to me. I really don't know what to do or say...I guess I will be leaning on God to see what to do and say...(as it should be) I talk to her for the first time in a real long time a week and a half ago...It was the very first civil conversation we have every had. Now I am going to see her. I figured it would be a few phone calls here and there but no! I am going to see her... Well I am freaking out!! Oh well what happens... happens I guess...I am sure everything will be fine...OMG!

2006-02-02T11:19:00.000-08:00

So I am sorry that I have not been posting!!! But all is very well. Lately I have just been focused on other things...

So through this fast God has been letting me know that I am in a very necessary time of preparation and learning. But I have been having some issues on where, how, how...You know those basic little pestering questions...It just seems the more I pray about the further I get form the answer... I guess I just need some help!

My God is wonderful...

2006-01-09T12:43:00.000-08:00

God is so awesome!!!!! He is doing some amazing things...It is so cool when you have been praying and studding yet, your thinking your not hearing right...And then....You get confirmation every where you go. God is about do a mighty work! We have to be ready...In season and out of season...We need to have an intimate relationship with Jesus, for this to happen...He has to be our focus...Our Everything! In order to do this you have to talk to him, get to know him...Just like any other relationship. But he has to come first....This is going to be such a great year....

2006

2006-01-02T13:53:00.000-08:00

First of all I would like to thank you all for your prayers . My Uncle is doing much better!

I can not believe it is the new year already, the year went by so fast. But I am really excited for this year. I truly believe God is going to move in some powerful and interesting was...I can hardly wait. Last year was a good year...I learned a lot . But I am in no way sad to see it go. I am so happy for this new year...Another year to get closer to my God...What a blessing...
I pray you all have a wonderful, prosperous, exciting, adventurous year with our awesome God!!!!

Prayer Request...

2005-12-27T17:27:00.000-08:00

Hey Everyone:

I have a prayer request! My Uncle Joey is in the Hospital... For those of you who don't know this is the uncle that was stuck in Mexico during the hurricanes. Anyways the doctors don't no what's wrong with him...His stomach is bleeding...No one knows why...So if you all can just pray for is health that would be wonderful...

2005-12-24T12:15:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Eve everybody !

God's best for my life...?

2005-12-19T22:29:00.000-08:00

Lately I have been finding my self praying for God's best for my life. I have been doing a lot of praying and studying, also with the help of others I see how easy it is to miss out on God's best. Even those who seem so focused somehow miss it. For example: God told Sarah she would have a son...She thought impossible she was to old...Time went by no son...So Abraham had a son with her slave Hagar...She then had Ishmael...(not God's best for him, caused problems)...then later Sarah had Isaac...we all know the story, but my point is they didn't wait for God and his perfect timing...They took matters into their own hands. And all that did was cause problems... If only they were patient and let God do what he had promised to do...
I see how important God's best for us is...Yes life will go on if we mess up...But personally I don't want life to be ok...If I can have the best, I want the best... But it is not easy to get the best...Life just isn't easy...Pray and obey.

2005-12-14T13:37:00.000-08:00

Your Birth Month is September

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love
Your gemstone: Sapphire
Your flower: Morning Glory
Your colors: Brown and deep blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Rules...

2005-12-12T17:30:00.000-08:00

The Chronicles of Narnia (The lion,witch, and the wardrobe) Go see it great movie.

I have new movie rules for myself...
#1 Don't buy popcorn...You know you don't like it!
#2 Eat real food first...We like a happy Arlene
#3 Bring jacket of some sort...You know you get cold
#4 You have a bladder the size of a peanut ...Go to the bathroom first!

New Rules for myself (in general)
#1 Don't let other people affect you
#2 Enjoy yourself even when you don't want to
#3 The glass in finally half full lets keep it that way
#4 Jesus loves you...Nothing else matters but him

Ok I am done for now ...

Deuteronomy 28-You should read it...

2005-12-08T10:58:00.000-08:00

"Now it shall come to pass, if you diligently obey the voice of the Lord your God, to observe carefully all His commandments which I command you today, that the Lord your God will set you high above all nations of the earth. Any all these blessings shall come upon you and over take you, because you obey the voice of the Lord your God..."Deuteronomy 28 1:3

Good Stuff...Thought someone else would get a little something out of this...

a little help here...

2005-12-06T20:34:00.000-08:00

" And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 (niv)

Ok, so I came across this today and I really don't get the last part. I get the all works for good for those who love the lord...but the last part is confusing me a little bit...

So if anyone would like to tell me what they get out of it...That would be real sweet.

The little things...

2005-12-04T22:26:00.000-08:00

Luke 16:10 "unless you are faithful in small matters, you won't be faithful in large ones." (nlt)

Sometimes people get so overwhelmed with the big things that they let the little things just pass them right by. I have always believed that when you take care of the small things the big things will take care of themselves. Really the small things are what truly matter. Think about it... a look...a smile...a kind word...a hug...These little things could make somebody's day.

It was just a thought I had...

29 DAYS...

2005-11-26T13:55:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving is over and Christmas is on the way! A time to celebrate Birth the of our lord! I have recently found out that my uncles are coming (happy) and we have to make tamales(not so happy). For those who don't know, tamales take hours upon hours to make. But that's what my uncle wants, and since he was stuck in Mexico and had to struggle to survive he can have what ever he wants. Well I am all ready for Christmas and the New Year...I have a feeling that this next year is going to be an eventful one...we can just call it a hunch...

Thanksgiving

2005-11-22T10:42:00.000-08:00

Don't you just love Thanksgiving!!! Your house filled with people, all the moms, grandma's, and aunts cooking. That football game that nobody watches, but you can't help but have it playing in the background. Plus its the one time of the year people remember how blessed they really are!! I think we should remember everyday but Its better then never...I guess??? This thanksgiving is going to be kinda small 15-20 people tops. I think its going to be kind of wired. But it will be good my grandma is controlling the kitchen this year...She is the best cook in the family...Everyone thinks so...Just ask...
One little bitty sad part though...Its the first thanksgiving without my brother...Its the first thanksgiving without any of my guy cousins! OMG!! No boys!!!!
Jen: This does not mean you get to beat on me!!! Please!
I am sure we will all be just fine!

Fine I will update...

2005-11-16T12:25:00.000-08:00

I was listening to one of James deMelo's teachings last night, "Satanic Attacks". He said you should look at an attack on your life like a compliment. Yes, a compliment! You see the only reason satan would take the time to attack you is because he finds you threatening. He is looking in the spiritual realm, and sees the plan and purpose God has for you. Now if your not being attacked it doesn't mean you have made it to some ultimate spiritual level. It means your no longer a threat. However, there will be a day once YOU have decreased and let GOD increase in your life. And you won't let these attacks affect you but you will take them and use it as a weapon for Gods glory. ie: (When David killed Goliath he used Goliath's sword to kill him.) So taking what satan wanted to use to hurt you/bring you down and using it instead to lift you up and bring you closer to God.
This really opened my eyes I pray it does the same for someone else.

Your just the way God Made You !

2005-11-08T17:26:00.000-08:00

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

-Russell Kelfer-

I have read this poem before but the other day, it really hit me. I have been through a lot of crap in my life and I always wanted to know...WHY?? I would ask God all the time...WHY? I felt like a never got a real answer. I had so many questions like, why my parents didn't want me? I really wanted the answer to this one. What was wrong with me? They wanted all my brothers and my sister but they didn't want me. They made sure to tell me this when ever they could get the chance. Needless to say I was hurt by my parents when I was little. It wasn't Gods will for this to happen, I was being attacked and at such a young age. Why would satan see me as such a threat? I am sad to say he broke me! There was a time until recently there many risks untaken, lots of doors that remaind locked, ect...I learned how to smile on the outside when I could only cry on the inside. I also learned to keep people at arms length so I couldn't get hurt again. But God is so awsome because he fixed me made me bran new!! This poem just reminds me that God made me for a reason and when you go through hard times He will be with you always and forever. Their is no problem to big for God. Just call on his name and he will be there.

Wisdom Teeth

2005-10-28T10:30:00.000-07:00

I got my wisdom teeth out and my face is swollen! I am so sad. Plus I was awake when they took them out. I don't recommend that, the noise is awful. But its really not that bad of an experiance. Well excepted my grandpa was late picking me up and didn't get around to getting my meds until 5 hours later. He was shopping and lost track of time, I guess. Now that just sucks. But I gotta love him.
I will leave you with something to think about: "Never tell your neighbors to wait until tomorrow if you can help them now." Proverbs 3:28 TEV

More of God

2005-10-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

I want to know God better! I have had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ since I was a little girl. I have read the bible cover to cover. I go to church every sunday. Jesus is my everything and I love him with all my heart. But I still feel like there is something missing. I want to know the God and the man, much much better. I want everything I think, say, and do to be Godly. I feel like I have wasted time because I have know Jesus my whole life and here I am 18 years old and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything that would benefit the kingdom. I have known Gods calling on my life since I was small and nothing is done. I thought that I had to find myself get to know me. But I was wrong!! It has nothing to do with me, it has everything to do with God! He is the one I have to find and get to know, better then anything else. Without him nothing else matters. I feel so blessed that he trusts me to be place in a position of influence in the future. I don't understand why he picked me. I guess its true God has a sense of humor, the one thing that scares me more then anything else(singing in front of people). Yet that is my passion. The gift God has given me and I am more then willing to give it back to him to use in anyway he sees fit. I am so excited to get to know him better and so blessed that he would allow me to.

God has a plan

2005-10-26T20:13:00.000-07:00

"Our goal is to stay wiyhin the boundaries of God's plan for us."
2 Corinthians 10:13 NLT
God has a plan and purpose for all our lives. We have to stick with it, he wont force us. But if we get out of the boundaries, he will alway be there to help us get back in.

Some times its best just to compromise

2005-10-25T19:15:00.000-07:00

Just a thought... Life is about compromises and knowing you have to put others first. People are very important, they are everywhere. And just know its hardly ever about you!
Some people will read this and not understand. Maybe someday I will explain my random thought!

Some things about me...

2005-10-18T18:21:00.000-07:00

*I love Jesus
*My family is big and loud (I love them)
*I wouldn’t be able to live without music
*I want to jump out of a airplane(will never happen)
*I hate seating in complete silence
*I love being busy
*Baby blue and Silver are my favorite colors
*I love the Ocean but I am scared of it(funny)
*I want to travel the world
*I am in love with love
*I am a terrible communicator
*I LOVE to sing
*I want a chocolate lab named coco
*Disneyland is my favorite amusement park
*I love learning about History
*I miss my brother
*I love to dance (when no one is looking)
*Action movies are the best kind
*My favorite Actress is Audrey Hepburn
*I have never seen snowfall
*I am a pretty good cook
*I don’t know how to dive
*I want to own a recording studio
*I want to buy a silver Honda S2000
*I have never been real camping
*I have never been fishing
*My favorite holiday is Christmas
*I love buying shoes

Gods Leaders

2005-10-04T12:47:00.000-07:00

"Let us with caution indulge the supposition, that morality can be maintained without religion."-George Washington

I have been reading about George Washington and this particular quote stood out to me. It is amazing that our first president was a man of faith as were most of the Great leaders of our country. Yet there are people who still question the religious foundation of this Great Country. But then again wasn't it religion that drove so many people away. We need to be an exapmle of christ and let the love of the father penetrate through us. Easier said then done right? If it was easy everyone would do it. I believe Washington was a great example of a man of faith. He was a praying man and had a heart after the lord. Don't take my word on this go read, but not just one book. Gather up as many as you can find and start to read them. There was one acount where he had bullet holes all through his clothes but was never shot. Later in his life he meet up with some indians who said that they were shooting at him. But they couldn't hit him because there was some kind of spirit protecting him.

He was also the only man who denied power and relinquished power. The people wanted to make him King and he said no. Then they made him President, after two terms he resigned. He could have remaind Prsident for as long as he wanted, the people would have loved that. He knew that if one man was in power for to long that it might overpower them. Not only did he relinquish power but also a salary. His did not accept the prsidents salary, even when he was general he didn't accept a salary. He billed the government for any suppiles he might have needed but everything else was on him. The reason why I mention this is because God is so amazing. God placed George Washington as a General, as our first President because he knew he would be a Godly man and plant Godly seeds. God wow's me everyday and it reminds me how much prayer changes things.